Saturday, April 30, 2005
ARGH!!!!................... AHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.......
ok, done with the 'screaming'. today would be an extra horrible day if dear wasnt there with me. *sob*
today isnt the first time i went for an interview, but guess wad??? i totally FORGOT about my portfolio!!! *kicks myself...*
and the "best" part is, i only remember abt it when i alight at SMU's bus stop. & its not becos i recall on my own, i was only reminded when i saw someone else carrying a TP portfolio!!! i'll never forgive myself man. ... and its so embarassing when i had to tell the receptionist that "my certs are not with me..." i think that was a bad sign that predicted my performance for the interview.
i just wasnt myself, like a fool... i was an audience. and the thing is, i CANT AFFORD to be an audience. cos i'm supposed to speak up to impress the interviewers!!! there goes my entry to SMU.
now now, dun bother to comfort me. i guess u should know my character. i am darn proud, terribly afraid of failures. so wad i do to deceive myself, is to forget abt these failures and avoid wallowing in self-pity at all costs... read this and keep it to urself... dun remind me the next time u see me. otherwise i'll sob right in the middle of Orchard or something...
*to dear: hope u enjoyed the buffet with my family, it sure lifted my spirits today.*
fluttered by @ 11:31 pm
[ the girl ]
[ name ] elena tan
[ bday ] 20. 12. 1985
[ email ] elenatyy[at]gmail.com
[ loves ]
my love, Ban
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