[ simply me ]

Sunday, September 25, 2005

in the afternoon last monday, someone attempted suicide at the admin building of NIE.

at that very moment, i wondered whether it was worth giving up everything for that attempted suicide. cos as a civil servant with a bond, he could be dismissed, blacklisted in the government's list and asked to pay an amount easily $50,000 and above for compensation.

people with happy, contented lives and no lack of love will never entertain the thought of taking their own lives.

but sad to say, there was a point in my life so down, i wanted to fling myself off my 10th storey flat.

many of u would have gasped or re-read the above sentence, but it's the truth. the happy-go-lucky Elena, with endless crappy jokes wanted to end-it-all.

my life hasnt been a 'good' one, it went down-hill at a certain point in time and there are many things that happened and i still hate myself for them...

i know that failures are inevitable and can help in the road to success, but the failures in my life did nothing but to push me deeper and deeper into the pit of regrets.

there are some things in life that i wanted so much, but it has come to a point when they have turned into unattainable desires.

but i will never consider suicide again, the only way to be strong, is to look at the future and not dwell on the past.

suicide is a way to escape torture in one's lives, but after u are gone, u pass on the torture to those who love u...

fluttered by @ 7:09 pm