Wednesday, September 13, 2006
i am so affected by what dear told me. i feel sad, angry and resentful to fate for making our lives so miserable. how come everyone else's lives seem so smooth-sailing? and ours is like way down in the dumps...
i hate this. i hate the unkindly, unfeeling people that exist around us. i wish all of them collapse right now, alive and not dead, just stuck in an eternal state of between life and death, never to regain consciousness. their tortured souls torment them, the evil deeds they have done flash through their minds repeatedly, they so wanna redeem themselves, but nothing can be done. they dont even have the abilty to put an end to their lives. yes, that's what they deserve, for being useless parasites of the earth. i hate all of you bastards.
still, most of all, i hate myself, for being so useless and helpless... when i'm silent, i'm not jaded, i'm just trying my best to keep my composure and not give in to all this crap by crying. at the very least, i wanna be strong for you.
p/s: i'm sorry, i wasnt of any help to you at all... i love you.
fluttered by @ 12:15 am
[ the girl ]
[ name ] elena tan
[ bday ] 20. 12. 1985
[ email ] elenatyy[at]gmail.com
[ loves ]
my love, Ban
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